wad the hell. the doc look so fierce n scary.. he look as if he gonna tell mi my days are numbered. went to SGH hos but lucky 2dae nt many ppl. so dun haf to wait too long but den the doc tok so long. nt as if my eyes are so tt serious. n tell mi try to avoid rubbing my eyes. LOL. nt as if i wan rub my eyes but den sometimes really veri itchy. no choice but to rub. hand dirty mayb. next time cannot go see this doc. always scare mi for nth.

lucky doc din give mi jab if nt sure faint dao. on e way home still tinking of u. haix but cant see ur photo cox din bring phone. *missing u

*haix.. wad a day i hav..

went to work nt even 10 min was asked to go home n rest..
hahax. saw my eyes so reddish n lyk gt infection den was asked to see doc nearby n rest at home.. went to doc n waited for lyk 1 hr be4 i saw the doc.. but meanwhile keeping rubbing my eyes cox is so itchy lor n so painful.. haix..
waited till lyk noon den finalli able to see doc..
doc give mi 2 slow-infection medicine to eat n apply on be4 slping .. hopefully ur medicine works doc.. den i wander ard be4 gg home cox i dun wish my auntie they all noe about this. noe about i din go for work so jux sae i gt go for work ba.. dun wan them nag n nag or scold mi or wad.. though i get used to it le. so wander ard. so free until i went to 2nd home n sit sit.. but the sun was so hot until i go off cox at e same time i was wearing my long sleeves ma tt y.

when i went back home is lyk my auntie seems to went out. . lucky she din i go doc or wad if nt sure nag de.. saw my bro.. he ask mi y i came back so early.. even he tot i went for work. .which in fact i did.. but onli 10min work.. LOL.. perhaps wasnt feeling gd mayb b'cox din slp well ytd night.. was tinking n tinking n eyes was so damm painful. cant open my eyes. stupid.
wanna cry oso cant cox will cfm pain lyk siao 1.. so jux cry inside lor..

den u msg mi with even more sad msg making mi even sad.. hai dao wo blaming myself for every pain i cause for u.. thnx mei for the encouragement.. but is impossible for mi to be nt sad cox some1 i love left mi.. she always assume that i wanna leave her but in fact tt nt the case.. despite i constantly sae i realli dun wan her to leave.. ytd night feel lyk stopping her to sae all this cox this is not wad i feel.. wanna call her to explain but scared she might sae more hurtful words that might hurt mi again.. den my eyes cant afford to cry ytd night.. if nt my eyes lost sight.. if serious. tt y hav to wear spects to protect.

i go to slp le.. thnx every1. tired after eating medicine... but i will still be waiting for the day u come back n sae dun leave. cox i dun wanna leave u.. but haf to wait for my eye to recover.. .hopefully tmr will be fine le. hoping we dun jux end it here but go through everything tgt. *waiting.

*moodless

veri moodless.. ur words impact mi alot.. blog ltr go n slp first,
din realli slp well ytd night though~

it is still ocurring.. the prob is still there haix haix

UNDERSTANDING AND FAITH??!! whr hav they go in u? 1 thing that is always true till 2dae.. i nv wanna leave u but u r always making mi to leave u.. y??!!

u might envy other couples, sae-ing them din quarrel but i dun tink they will ask each other to leave each other ba.. u r always asking mi to leave u, always sae-ing things that hurt nt jux mi but u as well. WHY??!!

scolded scolded and scolded by my family for coming home late.. would u bear to allow mi get scolded? u dun bear mi to leave ur hse but if u r understanding enough, u wouldnt wan mi reach home late. N u deleted the photos!! thats wad make mi angry n sad.. despite i constantly tell u dun delete u still do it.. nt jux 2dae but all along im been telling u this.. either u take my words for granted or i mean nth to u that u bear to delete the photos.. hurting nt jux mi but u as well..

WHY??!! CAN U TELL MI WHY U R TREATING MI LIKE THIS???!!! i oso dono y im so damm worried for u past few days when u r sick.. *haix..

hw i wish... ... u can understand mi more, mayb i feel apologetic for nt picking up ur call.. realli sry bout tt.. nt going out with doesnt mean i dun care for u. is jux tt hav to finish up project in order to go out with ya tmr.. in e past during exam period, u would understand mi more by telling mi to go home n study..

nevertheless, i dont blame any1 for this.. jux wishing upon the stars u will understand mi more n i understand u more. anw no mood play game nor do project.. *thinking of 'her'

hw i wish i slp throughout of my entire life with u, keeping our dreams alive and nt caring of anithin tt surrounds both of us..


Darling i let u down.. its my fault.. i let u lost ur trust on mi entirely. im sry .. *cried
thus, i decide to leave u silently, hope u can forget bout mi, forget bout my everything. hope u can find a guy much more better than mi, im sure u do..

wad my mum told mi is true.. loving a person is wanting the person to gain happiness.. if i continue to hold u, u will wouldnt be happi as well. though i realli wish u could b e person tt will walk through my entire life, but this incident realli makes mi feel im nt suited for u.. i feel bad n sry n will blame myself even more if i continue with u..

1 thing tt will nv change, in my heart u r my piglet.. i love u

treasure mi lyk the way i treasure u.. though everyday i noe u love mi, but however u nv fail to sae 'u dun wan mi' this word again. we both noe each other that we belong to 1 another so we wont try to hurt each other but instead love each other even more.. 'u dun wan mi' has become a familiar word i heard.. hw i wish u could revert this word to ' i love u' more. if i tell u this face to face, u might be sad n might blame mi for nt caring for u or nt loving u more enough. tt y i gt no choice but to write it in blog.



anw 2dae work i commit so much mistakes.. hav to re-do so many times until im having a serious headache and wanting to faint and vomit too.. str8 after work i called 'her' n told her i gt a slight headache, cant meet her.. actualli i wanna meet her cox furthermore she bought smth for mi to eat which i feel veri touched.. but my head hurts.. kinda feeling lyk fainting anytime.. hw i wish u could sae few words to show ur care for mi instead of telling mi 'go home lor'. ur every word banished my unhappiness and sickness i had in mi..


hw i wish u could love mi more than i love u... ... b'cox i realli love u

i was here to post another blog.. .. 2dae was a day at home, having headache in e morning cum nose bleed. haix. . den wake up at 2 plus in e afternoon but den still feeling sleepy as ever. Piglet went to expo for the food fair as well as some disney event with her family. sry piglet. cant go cox i gt headache in e morning. jux hope that u can enjoy as much as u do k. love u.

hv undergo half of the attachment period. half more to go! cant wait for attachment to end asap.. hahax. oso cant wait for vivian to leave too. . she has been bothering me for quite sometime during work, nt onli havin attitude prob but acting lyk a 'big deal' gal. haix.. simply tired of havin to buy food for her everyday during lunch. i dun look lyk her maid lor.. neither her bf. y mus i do things for her? haix..

went back to maple.. !! the feeling was jux so cool . . dono y oso.. hahax.. off to maple le. cya guys.. love piglet lots..

haix.. quarrel with 'her' again. ytd oso lyk tt. 2dae oso lyk tt. is girls tt sensitive??!! saying harsh words at me is wad u called love?

dun realli understand wad u r feeling.. ask u wad happen but u dun wanna sae.. u prefer to keep it to urself.. it is jux a normal phone call.. i always give in to u even if u raise voice at me or sae negative words.. i was tinkin if u were me, u will no doubt hang up the phone n ask to go on our own way.. if u love me, u wouldnt raise voice at me. haix super tired.. i was worrying bout this rs and n thinkin n tryin my best to hold on but.. haix..

彩虹


哪里有彩虹告诉我
能不能把我的愿望还给我
为什么天这么安静
所有云都跑到我这里

有没有口罩一个给我
释怀说了太多就成真不了
也许时间是一种解药
也是我现在正服下的毒药

看不见你的笑我怎么睡得着
你的身影这么近我却抱不到
没有地球太阳还是会绕
没有理由我也能自己走

你要离开我知道很简单
你说依赖是我们的阻碍
就算放开那能不能别没收我的爱
当作我最后才明白

有没有口罩一个给我
释怀说了太多就成真不了
也许时间是一种解药
也是我现在正服下的毒药

看不见你的笑我怎么睡得着
你的身影这么近我却抱不到
没有地球太阳还是会绕
没有理由我也能自己走

你要离开我知道很简单
你说依赖是我们的阻碍
就算放开那能不能别没收我的爱
当作我最后才明白
看不见你的笑要我怎么睡得着
你的身影这么近我却抱不到
没有地球太阳开始环绕环绕
没有理由我也能自己走掉
是我说了太多就成真不了
也许时间是一种解药解药
也是我现在正服下的毒药

你要离开我知道很简单
你说依赖是我们的阻碍
就算放开那能不能别没收我的爱
当作我最后才明白... ...



the past memories i hav evolved into 彩虹... ...

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